I don't believe in any god
It's not that I'm a negative person
I don't even like being Atheist

It's just that Theism seems so alien to me...
Why do people believe in something when there is no proof?
Why can't I share their views?

Try as I might, I cannot grasp the idea of an omniscient being
Or even just a group of higher powers


So I ask those with faith...
Not why you have it
Nor do you enjoy it

I ask you what it feels like
To feel truly secure
And know that salvation awaits?

What is it like to have faith?

Wow. This doesn't really seem like a poem at all, I'm guessing you're just asking a question.

Right, well, faith is incredibly simple, and yet it can be so complex at times. It feels like a treasured possession at times, almost as if it's something I own, but I know it's more than that, and should be.

Really, the biggest influence it's had on me is to help me step back and realize that in the bigger picture, life isn't about me, and that that's not a bad thing, it's a wonderful thing. It sort of gives a sense of... universalism. Like everything matters, everywhere. So many seemingly tiny things matter so much to someone, and even those things that seemingly don't affect anything - a moonlit night with no one to see it, a quasar bursting into life in some remote corner of the universe - bring pleasure to God, having been created by Him, and all being within a plan.

Plans are malleable, though, even God's. People can choose whatever path they want, and though God knows whatever we do, it's not because he foresees it - it's because He's there when we make the choice and afterwards, before, and He lets us do what we will, not interrupting even a murder or some silent horror that leaves someone's life seemingly broken or hanging by a thread - because the alternative would be even worse, entering lives without permission and exercising just control, but just control that would remove our ability to choose right by ourselves, to choose to go the Right way and so create a world where our very free will was robbed by taking away the consequences of our actions.

I don't care if I die. As I remarked a long time ago, it seems like, if I were to lie dying at fourteen (or sixteen, now), sure, there would be fear, but the hope would be stronger than the fear. Fear is a thing of life, and a thing born of uncertainty. Sure, I'm still afraid all the time. Faith doesn't stop that, and I'm not saying faith is the only thing that can stop it either.

I just believe that whatever I do, I'll be okay after it all ends, and that I'll leave behind what I've done to be rewarded, but in accordance to what I've done for others. In the end, everything matters, but judgment isn't the issue, and nobody should do something out of fear, but out of love, or devotion, or the joy of choice.

It's awful to go through indecision, or feeling empty or confused, about something important. I hope you come to some resolution and feel secure somehow - it's better than being alone and not being secure. It's annoying being constantly in doubt, and feeling that there's nowhere to turn - there are far worse feelings, but even more better ones.

Ironically, your poem, despite hardly being a poem at all, was infinitely more thought-provoking and harrowing than the one I read right before this, Demon Slayer, even though that was about a horrible monster whom the protagonist slew with a sword. Maybe you should publish a poetry collection!

I abandoned poetic technique in favour of aiming for what poetry is about. I didn't want a silly rhyme.

I thought it was good...