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edit: been reading my past blogs from ~4-5 years ago and cringing at some of the shizzle i posted - i opened up a fair amount and that's pretty awesome, wish I did more nowadays but then in 4-5 years if I found this I'd be cringing again x)
this place holds close to me, thanks everyone for reading anything i've ever posted(if you even remember me probably not but it's all good)
I don't know, I'm just gonna write and hopefully I feel better - I got a job at a place that just opened, and I met a girl whose a coworker of mine and I like her a lot from everything I've talked to her - only known her for 2 weeks but I think about her a lot.
Also the one girl who I might've talked about, tl;dr she liked me I didn't really know but I liked her she didn't act like she did but she did, we hadn't talked in two months and then she starts texting me, everytime she wants me to hang out w/ her she says shizzle about her parents getting pissed and whatnot and how she can't go.
So anwyay, at work I got the girls snapchat and took a selfie w/ her for the snap story. I also was talking to girl #1 and forgot to respond, and then long story short she shows up with the family at the store while I'm working. It was super weird, like super weird haha - coworker called her pretty too
Anyway I like her but I don't think I can ask her out because she's probably not into me(I have a feeling cause we were talking abt music and she talked about how she went to a concert, got hammered and started hooking up with dudes left and right) was wondering why she told me that, I kinda just gave her a blank stare.
anyway yeah i like this girl but i don't think it'll work out and it's real annoying, and i haven't responded to the first girls texts cause i feel like she texts me when she wants to talk then doesn't respond for hours sometimes and then we haven't actually hung out because she always gets in trouble or whatnot and yeah
anyway yeah i like the job, it's not as shizzlety as fast food and the managers cool, schools coming soon so my days gonna consist work, working out and school - i want to take mma classes soon because it sounds like a good time
anyway don't really know what i'm saying at this point
But for senior year, we had to order shirts - I didnt buy one from the girl who made them, figured I'd make it myself - I have the design, can anybody help me out(forgot I was incompetent)?
Also got a job at Jersey Mikes Sub, walked into the store to ask about applications then they said I can start tomorrow. It was the owner, wife, and another guy, and they seemed nice so I hope the work environment is good.
Been working out, dieting getting swole, lots of league of legends also been playing some 07scape on the side
So yeah, been working at wendys for ~a month, sitting on a few hundred bucks, but I hate the hours and I have a few great co-workers, but one of them is kind of a bipolar dick whose getting promoted to asst manager so that's no good
I have Ramadan coming up, and don't feel like working 30 hours a week during it, so I think I'm going to quit
my finals are next week, and I requested off to study and take ample time to take them. I didn't show up to work today because I was feeling sick, and I called and nobody picked up
I want to quit, but I know I have to go in person and that's always awkward, I kind of want to call and get it over with but that's weak(also don't really need their reference to get a new job, a friend of mine said he could hook me up at McDonalds where the hours are flexible and you make them yourself)
So yeah. Also this girl I like I wrote about a while ago where I was a bro and when my friend said he wanted to go to prom with her I didn't intercede, well I think I'm going to tell her I like her next time I see her - although i don't think shes into me, even though she said she wanted me to go to prom with her + she seems flirty and always tries to poke me and hugged me multiple times out of the blue. idk though i suck at picking up hints
thanks for reading my petty-ass problems
Just got a job at Wendy's, started Tuesday. The papers said I'd be working Wednesday 4-8 and Sat/Sunday, but I ended up working Tues-Thurs this week, and I'm working tomorrow from 11:30-8 and Sunday 12-5:30
I keep getting this feeling of nervousness and stress. I haven't ever been depressed, but I don't really enjoy anything because of work, I want to study for SATs and finals and work out but I can't because I work 5 days a week and I'm not mentally prepared for it I guess - even now, I've done it for 3 days(mostly drive through, trained with a coworker who seems like a bro on how to make sandwiches but stopped) and did more drive thru - I fudgeed up a few orders, and two of my coworkers told me that the first few weeks were overwhelming, and I guess they're right.
I have to talk to my manager so I can do 4 days a week instead of 5 I guess
I don't see myself working there for a year, Ramadan is in a month and it seems counterintuitive to fast and work in fast food, so there's that - but I really hate this nervous feeling that usually goes away when I get to work, then comes back when I get out.
Thanks for reading
I did a writeup but it deleted for some reason
been a while since I've done one of these, but I want to get this off my chest - people told me this girl was into me, i didnt believe it since frankly she was out of my league and we texted and talked every day, a friend asked her out to prom(I was going to but didn't because he told me he was going to and I didn't tell him I was planning on it) and then we texted a little and she said she wish I asked her to prom and she always asked me why we don't hang out more often and I always made excuses because she asked me to hang out and I felt it would be awkward since she's going to prom with my bro, but they we havent really talked a lot, because I dont want to respond when she says "Haha" since I don't want to carry a damn conversation if she doesn't want to have one, but then she'll always poke me and shizzle which AFAIK mean shes somewhat into me - and they went last night(to prom) and she looked gorgeous and now im sad again D:
It's poorly formatted, kind of indicative of how my mind is functioning right now
Just gonna list off what's going on right now.
~Have a 2.9 AVERAGE GPA for 3 years of HS, right now as of year 3 I'm sitting on a 3.7 GPA - I shizzle the bed as an underclassman.
~Lotta League, I want to be a Youtube/Streamer(I have the time and the knowledge to do so)
~Was gonna go to prom, and I was gonna ask 2 girls(Obviously one being a backup incase the first said no(kind of unlikely)). Unfortunately, the first girl was taken by a friend when I was going to ask - the second girl I talk to every day, and I really liked her but my friend told me he wanted to go to prom with her, so I just helped him ask her.
So yeah. I went for a walk today too, and cleared my head, it felt pretty serene listening to Wu-Tang Clan and other hip-hop for like 25 minutes.
Also, have to write 2 essays by tomorrow. Both a "Modern Proposal", my topic being censorship. I really don't know a ridiculous way to emulate Jon Swift on this topic, the only ideas I had were
Turn off the internet for everyone. If some people can't have it, nobody can.
I actually played 07 for 2 weeks because I had a bond. It was kind of cool.
Thanks for reading, much appreciated!
To South Jersey, for a League LAN tourney. Prize is up to $1200 - I feel like my team can win. Also, it sounds like fun too, since this year I've been more social + I've been doing well in school.
I need a job as well, and I have NO IDEA what I'm going to do for 3 hours in a car. Any ideas? I have an Android phone (Tmobile G2), I was thinking about getting a movie + Mario Kart on an emulator, but I don't know if my phone can handle it.
Took a class year, a Java Class. I really like it.. It makes sense. It's a nice doggy! when I get stuff wrong, but pulling off basic code feels great.
I'm looking for colleges, preferably one for Computer Programming, in NJ. Anybody have any ideas? I have a ~3.0 GPA but I plan on raising it to a 3.5 hopefully.
Thanks for reading!
from Saudi Arabia, and they brought a weird phone with them.
It's like a Galaxy s3 but the buttons let and right of the home button are buttons you click rather then touch, and it appears this was made to be used with a stylus(it is hard to move around with fingers)
when I turn it on, it says Samsung Galaxy S3 gt-19300, been researching that but whenever I do the regular galaxy comes up.
This is probably some foreign copy i guess.
For $120, I got my friends Xbox, 7 games, 4 controllers, a network adapter, and his Live account with a years worth of membership on it.
Things to do
Get a proper headset/mic for it(Since My Logitechs won't work ;_;)
Get GTA 5(this should be first lol)
Change name on XBL
Hoping I can find a mic/headset at a local Five Below(For those that don't know, it's a dollar store with lots of variety in items)
gone for 2 weeks to Saudi Arabia, our Sister will stay over and oversee us(I get to see my niece more! :D)
kind of sad, just hope they stay safe
anyway just wanted to put that out there for some reason, idk why
also almost diamond on league thats cool
I think I have them, the sides of my calves by them are hurting from running I Guess, but I'm not 100% sure, it just hurts when I put pressure on my legs :x it's been happening for a few days, probably going to go to a doctor
Need to be 18 for Dunkin' Donuts. Which is weird, since my friend worked in one at 16. I'm going to ask him about it, since he's white and all LOL.(something something foreign dunkin donuts worker joke)
Anyway school started, classes are easy, really enjoy Auto and Java classes.
Also thinking about playing RuneScape again. How is it? I have like 30M on it right now. I figure I could play it whenever I want, especially since it's essentially free witht he bond system.
for recovering my account. Ramadan's over too, Late Eid Mubarak to all Muslims. Also, now I can hang out with friends, but I only want to hang out with a select few. And they're on Vacation or busy, it seems.
Also fixed Cloudberry Kingdom and it's pretty fun. When i alt-tab out of it, though, it crashes. So I have to fix that.
Woke up this morning okay, decided to hop on computer for an hour, got off, walked downstairs to living room, and my neck started hurting a lot. Figured it was just a knot from uncomfortable sleep, and hours later it hurts to move it back and to the right, not a ton of pain but noticeable. I've been massaging it and laid down for like an hour too, so I hope it goes away :D
gonna get one under my Dad's name, I think. So I can buy stuff off Amazon, I'm gonna apply for a Debit card after I get one too, so I can buy on Amazon w/ Paypal.
Then I can get my new monitor ;d going with what Freedom suggested ;p
Found this monitor, like 80 bucks, seems simple and efficient and I've been hating using a 17" square monitor(Can't watch videos properly, or even stream properly!)
Pretty happy, going to order it soon!
Be prepare for them weed references
funniest shizzle ever
fudge. I had a whole blog, and accidently hit backspace and it went back and I can't retrieve it.
Want to learn how to code(taking java in school come Sept, figure it would help and Coding seems like a valuable skill in the future)
Textbook fine(wtf, it was in the teachers classroom, I couldn't hand it in so I left it there, it's been like a year and now they're telling me they threw out the receipts where you write the textbook info? I think I'm going to school in the coming weeks for 1 day to find it)
Been watching quite a few documentaries(documentaryheaven.com if anybody interested)
Something something something(might update with stuff I remember, goddamnit backspace)