right now im going into my second year of my bachelor of science
honestly the only reason im in it is because i couldnt find anything else to do and i was already taking math/science in high school so why not
soo yeah the thing is im not passionate about anything at all. i kinda like math cuz im good at it, science im pretty good at too and i dont really mind it that much. only thing i dont want to do for sure is become an engineer/do anything with physics.
what did you guys when you were in a position like this? how did you end up making up your mind and find something to do?
i really like playing basketball but im obviously not good enough to go pro and i do not really want to work in a field of sports cuz i would be too sad its not me playing.
i literally posted this exact same thing to reddit so i just pasted it here but im gonna add a bit more..
Basically I'm pretty sure the root of my problems start from childhood. I am the oldest child and I'm 18 and a guy. Basically ever since I was younger my parents would tell me not to have friends. They would tell me to only talk to people at school when I needed to and when I came home I needed to have no connection to school. Due to this I basically never went out once I came home or once it was the weekend. My friends at school knew this (from like grade 1) but of course they all hung out and I never got that close to them. I did not have a tv or anything in my house and my parents are pretty religious so talking with girls and such was out of the picture.
I just want to say that yes although this shizzle is fudgeed up in a way my younger siblings actually live a good life. I think my parents learnt from me and they're allowed to have friends and although they're still strict with going out and what not they do get to go out and play sports and join sports teams at school (something I was never able to do) but idk the damage is done right.
Anyways around end of grade 11 I decided enough is enough and I made a facebook and I started having convos and stuff with a bunch of people. All this time though at school I used to be the loudest in class and I was a pretty guy. Girls didn't like me (I remember this but I'm not sure why) but end of grade 11 I was getting kind of better. This brings me to my first problem which I'm getting kind of better at. Back then because I'd literally never talked to a girl about anything other than school I used to get so nervous talking to girls and whatnot and this kind of leads to what is wrong now. I started university this year and I haven't really made friends. People tell me to join clubs but i don't really have much interests except for playing basketball and i didn't realize when the sign ups for intramurals were so I'll sign up when next year starts. Basically I'm really not that awkward when I talk to girls anymore (I literally talked to every girl i saw at school to kill my fear or whatever it was) and I can make them laugh and whatever. BUT although I do get their numbers and stuff I don't get close to them and I'm unsure how. And if I do get close to a girl I immediately catch feelings for her which is fudgeing retarded because as a guy you know how much it sucks to have feelings for a girl you wrent even trying flirt with. Then I get all sad and depressed when they don't reply to my texts and I can't stop thinking about them. This literally happens with any girl that shows friendly affection towards me. I'm pretty sure this has to do with me not talking to girls for the majority of my life. Any idea how I can fix this???
The second problem is I'm obsessed with trying to make the basketball team. I won't lie I'm pretty good and although there isn't a very good chance I won't make the team next year I work everyday towards trying to make the team. I don't know what's wrong with me but I want to experience that bond or whatever with being on a team. I see the players of different teams together and I'm kinda jealous of the friendship they have. How can I get over all this??
As for guy friends I judge way too much. Like I can become friends easily with guys too but I'm so selective and it's not a good think. Like I'll try to become friends with people on sports teams or who I think are "cool". Someone told me to give everyone a chance so I'm doing that but any help would be appreciated for that too.
Also classes end in twoish weeks so I guess if I can make some kind of friends before the summer it would be great. Usually the past 17 summers of my life are the most depressing time of my life. My parents don't let me go out and I sit at home the whole day doing nothing and sometimes I just feel like crying. This summer I'm taking summer school and I've also told my parents im going to play basketball in the summer so it would be nice to finally hangout with people and not be so depressed. Honestly any sort of break or holiday is a nightmare for me. I think I need to socially interact with people or else I get really sad. I'm not the type of person that can sit around and be happy being alone.
My school campus is also pretty big like 80000 students and I don't live on campus which also sucks.
so added on:my parents havent exactly gotten better. theyre very religious so they get at the dumbest shizzle for me. i think about running away a lot but i literally dont have any money and i cant exactly take care of myself. plus they said some pretty hurtful things so im trying my best not to talk with them unless i have to have to.. (like the things they said were pretty sad i cant believe my parents would say that stuff) (they werent making fun of me but im not gonna say what they said)
i cant exactly leave the house whenever i want. like the other day i had an exam and i came home after and went to sleep cuz i slept 3 hours the night before. when i woke up i went to play ball for 2 hours and after i came home they yelled so much and stuff..
oh and they said i have to work in the summer (like i owe them) and my dad is like oh its my house u must listen to me.. that kinda makes me sad cuz i met someone on the ball team who said he would work with me over the summer and this is my best chance to get onto the team but idk now if i work playing ball the whole day is kind of hard. ok i gotta go take care guys
Okk few things to ask about.
First off I live in Toronto. Parents are thinking about going to Pennsylvania to some shopping outlet mall. Looking around on the internet I found its called Grove Mall.
Has anybody been there and are the prices really that good? I have to get quite a bit of shoes and clothes.
Secondly, I wanted to get your opinion on a few things.
Best brand of...
I guess good prices would a plus and maybe where I can get them from?
So you guys already know my situation with buttons and stuff. I'm looking for a wintert jacket with no buttons (even press buttons)
Price range around $50-70 I guess. Maybe coats you guys have worn?
This is for when its freezing and a hoodie doesn't work.
So I've gotten into running. We did the 12 min run at school and I got 6 laps (2.4km) which is above average.
I was just going to run 12 min runs everyday but my friend said thats a bad idea. Do you guys have a plan I can use that help me improve my running.
Also does doing pushups/situps/burpees make you lose weight cause I want to do those but I don't want to lose weight. How many of those should I do?
And since I'm pretty good at ball but want to get better and stuff. I'm pretty small so if I get fouled I can't ever finish. I don't really want to get buff though.
I had this twitter account lying around so I decided to use it. Started tweeting people in my school. Only a close friend knows that its me. Everyone else thinks it is someone else.
A few girls are close with this one guy and they think it is him tweeting them.
I got into this conversation with her but I have no idea what to say. She clearly believes I am the "Emad" guy who I'm obv. not. I got caught offguard with that last tweet though and have no idea what I should reply back with.
Oh and not sure what I am achieving by covering up our names lol.
Red arrow is the girl.
Side note. My friend told me to tell Emad that I am doing this and then we can troll together. Bad idea or not?
Funniest part is me being there when they accused him of having twitter. Almost burst out laughing lol.
I'm also pretty close with this guy.
Sorry for sounding like Sofee.
So my Air Maxes are getting old I want to get new shoes. I want to get 2 pairs this time.
1 pair to play sports and another pair for casual wear ( mostly walking in school and to places)
I would say a budget of $180 for both pairs combined.
Have any shoes in mind?
So over the last ~6 months or so, my parents have been taking away the power cable for the monitor so I can't access it. They take it away when they please which is every single time I would like to play. To give an idea, they take it away at night time around 11:00 PM so I can't waste my time. Usually I get on the computer at 9:30 to 10:00 pm after i'm done all my other hw after which I can do any hw i have on the computer. They also take it every time they leave the house so I'm kinda stuck without it. This means like on the weekends usually. I have classes Friday evening till Saturday evening (religious) so I can't be on till then anyways. Yeah I get it back to do hw and they take it back as soon as i'm done usually. Thing is that the printer uses the same wire and everything else including my hard drive uses it too. So the first day they took it away, I just took it from the printer and plugged in and it worked. Slowly every morning I would go on the computer and then proceeded to using it every night as well. Now let me tell you that at night time, I woulds spend around one and a half hours with the "fake" wire. I would finish up my hw and then maybe watch a show or play a game of league or two. Yesterday after being away for the whole weekend (religious thing) and after closing the door to my parents bedroom (they were going to sleep) I plugged in the "fake" wire into the monitor. This was around 12:20 and I had hw to finish up because I had done none (was away). I went to the bedroom to pick up my homework and I here my mom. O shizzle. I peek out of my bedroom into the dining room (yes its there so thats the first thing my parents see when they open the door) and shes there. She asks me if I had took the wire they had taken back and I said no. (Its under their pillow LOL no way I'm getting that) My mom asks me where I get it etc. and I told her Its from the printer and that I've had it for a long time (decided telling the truth was good) Then she said something about trust and stuff and my dad comes and takes the wire away (Dad was VERY calm and stuff; would have expected to get the beating of a lifetime LOL). Yeah so they took it away and I don't think I'll be able to play league much anymore. I tried telling her then that its helped me finish a lot of work (which is true as I've finished lots of work with it) and that even when I play its because I want to play and I should be allowed to play. She told me no and that weekdays are for work and stuff. I've been trying to convince her and she says that they let me play too much (she said 3-4 games is a lot and I do a lot of work). I honestly just want to do all my work and even if they let me play an hour then it would be ok. I can get more "wires" if I want but Ima take my time and think about it.
Oh yeh and the things I had clicked when I turned the computer on was google chrome and the league client. http://gyazo.com/871604348d058b3477734fa76937d632
yeah she saw that and shes like oo you were about to play (cause there is a PLAY button there).
So yeh when I leave to pray she will probably take it away again.
What do you guys say I should do?
So I did a lab in bio where we used candies to represent a population. Then we randomly picked candies out and that was the genetic drift population.
1. Make a data table to record the following: colour of candies from original population; number of each colour from original population; total number in original population; percent of each colour in original population; colour of candies from genetic drift population; number of each colour from genetic drift population; total number in genetic drift population; percent of each colour in genetic drift population. Give a scientific title for your data table that describes the data table clearly and accurately!
Here is the question.
Im kinda stuck as to what title I should use. This is realllly confusing me.
We had to do this lab where we tested different salts to see what color they gave off when we held them to fire.
There were 9 questions we had to answer and I am kinda stuck on two of them.
“What simple experiment could you perform to predetermine whether or not the color observed for sodium was due to the presence of the sodium ion in the compound or the nitrate in the compound?”
We had to test, Na, K , Ca, Ba, Sr, Li, Cu. They were all mixed with Nitrate.
I thought about this and I thought that when you test all of them, if it was Nitrate then they would all be the same color. Since they were all different colors (all the elements I tested)
A random question I have.
Does higher energy mean longer energy change?
What factor or variable does the energy associated with a specific colour of light depend on?
These two I have no clue. The first one is just something I was thinking about. The second one is on my lab but I have NO IDEA what to do. If you can even give me something to think about it would give me a lead.
I'm kinda stuck on this and my friend and I were debating over this.
Heptain and octane are found in gasoline. Heptane has a boiling point of 98 degrees and octane has a boiling point of 125 degrees. If a mixture of heptane and octane is distilled, what will happen?
A) Heptane will be the distillate. Octane will be the residue.
B) Heptain will be the residue. Octane will be the distillate.
C)Nothing will happen since heptanes (the s is prob. a spelling mistake) and octane cannot be separated by distillation.
D)Both the heptanes and he octane will become distillate.
E)Heptane will undergo a chemical change to form octane at higher temperatures.
Friend said A) because since Heptane boils faster, it will condense faster.
This seems retarded cause it doesn't say the temp. it will get distilled at. And they both seem gases.
I said D) because they are both gases and after a certain temp, they will both condense.
I'm not really sure though.
Another one I have which is kinda more of wording issue.
A 32 gram sample of sulfur has a yellow appearance and melts at 118.9C and boils at 444.6C. If exposed to silver, sulfur has the potential to tarnish the precious metal. A 32 gram sample of sulfur can be combined with 2 grams of hydrogen gas to form 34 grams of the "rotten" eggs smelling compund hydrogen sulfide. Sulfur does not dissolve in water however it does burn with a blue flame.
How many characteristic quantitative physical properties about sulfur are mentioned in the above message?
E) more than 3
I'm stuck between D and E cause...
32 gram of sulfur
but it says 32 grams again... confusing mannn
btw a quick question again....
is insulin a pure substance? :o
I've done enough research and worked like 3 hours and this whole set of questions. (More than these 3 but these 3 have stumped me (kinda)).
How much free time will you allow your children?
I feel that since my parent say that school nights are for work only, I kind of sneak on games which messes up my sleep as well.
Plus they tell me to come home as soon as school is dismissed. Is this justified? I tried telling them that by coming home early, it won't do me any good as I have nothing else to do after I finish my work either.Like school ends at 3:05 and I can be home by 3:18. I kind of want to chill with my friends but they pressure me to get home early to do practically nothing. They are telling me to be a loner once I leave school saying I don't need friends. And when I tell them they have friends... "It's different"
So how do I convince them that I do really need to the use the computer. They take the plug which connects the monitor to the outlet which means I can't use the monitor. The printer has the same wire but since the pc is so close to their bedroom (Literally open door and its there) I can't do that in risk of being caught.
I have like multiple labs due but I need the time. >.<
Btw anyone here done Grade 11 Functions?
So apparently after I told my doctor that my allergies are so bad that I feel that someone is squeezing my throat, she went baws mode and told me why I need to carry an Epi-PEEN? (Or something)
Also I have this other problem where food kinda gets stuck in my throat (Weird huh?) so ima have to go to the hospital to do an Endoscopy.
Anyone have this done before? I think I will get put to sleep and I'm pretty darn scared...
So atm I think i'm 5'4 and 120 pounds.
I am very very skinny and when I flex my biceps people go like ouch. Its because my arm is wider from my hand to the elbow than from the elbow to the shoulder.
My hips are very thin. Weird fora guy
and my butt is big (or I find it to be and when i look in the mirror its looks like a hump which I don't like)
I'm pretty good at sports but can't do any real pushups or situps (maybe a few situps but no pushups)
What can I do to get fit? What can I start off doing. I have lots of weights which you do bicep curls with and I also have a bench which you can lift your legs with/sleep and work your chest out.
What should I start off doing?
btw also have atreadmill.
Should I change my diet? I eat quite a bit and eat everything.
This is a follow up to my last blog post.
So today, I decided to be a nice doggy. I worked all day and did everything.
Then at 7pm I decided I would play.
Now the rage starts again.
1.I asked why I can't play. Asked for a reason. They are like we are your parents and can do whatever we want so there is no reason.
2.During Ramadan forget playing, I can't even go on the pc. which means I'm going to get really depressed for sure. I want to know there are people out there who are normal...
3.They are "banning" League. Like who do they think they are...
4.They want me to take my youth into good use for religion etc. I already spend 5+ hours a day and they want me to spend more.
5.I played 4 league games yeserday. Mom starts how I wasted 4 hours doing nothing. I said 3 hours and she started acting like I had just killed someone.
6.Dad said he dsnt want to talk about it saying its like afight in the hhouse.
7.They say there are many things on the computer and how much time it wastes. you dnt even know what you are doing.
there is so much more.
i just want to die
hmm i've toned down the plying but now.
1.they say i play a dumb game
2.it has dumb and scary monsters which will come to the grave and scare me there.
3.its a kids game
^ are those even valid points
4.all i do is play (yo i play like 2 hours)
why do ppl kill themseleves? is it when they are sad. i feel like doing something bad right now...
They keep bringing up the same points. I've been helping my mom and doing so much more stuff. They just keep asking for more.
Another thing is that my dad is going to start taking the modem to work. (pc is in dining room which is in front of bedroom anyways) this means I can't do anything now.
honestly being a teen, i feel that i need to stay in touch with people or else I get depressed.
i cried in front of them and they just laughed saying its pathetic i cry over a game.
@lilshu no im not a spoiled brat. there is nothing which can spoil me.
sure i can stop playing but i really do want to enjoy my time. they just keep telling me how they loved helping their parents and stuff. sure i help them but i need my own time too.
this is slowly getting worse.
im giving up on life now
k gotta go parents are going to kill me
Latley, its been my parents getting mad on Sundays.
I have classes from around Friday 6 to Saturday 6 (Yes around 24hrs). I come home and I play 2 league games which is around 1.5 hours.
Then on Sunday I prepare for my class again (Monday evening) and also do homework. I play around 5 league games this day which is max 3 hours. By this time my parents have flipped. Even after the first game they go mad.
I don't really play in the weekdays (nt that they know of) and now I'm so sad.
I've cried enough already (don't make fun of me please) and I know crying won't do shizzle now.
What happened this weekend is crazy though. My mom and dad said they are "banning" LoL from their house which means I can't play anymore.
What am I supposed to do? League takes me away from the troubles of this house and I'm so frustrated that I can't play now.
I don't know what else to say... life sucks man... Now I know why people cut themselves (I'm nt going to do that so dw) but this is just extra now...
I also know that writing about everything single thing which sucks at my house is not going to be worth it so now I'm going to stop.
What should I do? Bang my head against the wall.
And if anyone is wondering about my marks, my average was around 85% last term so I'm not doing bad or anything. I haven't tried tbh but sure I can do better but whats the point? Make them proud? Whats that going to do?
Also they get really mad for 2 things... when I'm playing my younger brother watched (around 2 years younger than me) and they say hes wasting his time too. Which is true but he won't leave.
Then there is my youngest brother who tries to sneak watch. When I tell him to leave or something they get so mad. I hate when he watches though cause after he just askes stupid stuff and won't even listen to what I say cause he knows everything now.
If this doesn't make sense sorry but I'm steaming atm
They tell me to help them in their free time or go outside (which I can't go with anyone obv.- no friends etc.)
Ok so I lead prayers.
I lead them for around 25 days. I was pretty nervous.
The problem here is that when I bent down...
Like this... (It's part of the prayer), my head would pump so hard at the back.
I was told by a friend that is is blood. It would start off slow then become so hard I wanted to scream. (I was in that pos for around 15 seconds each time)
Then when I stood up, my head was hurting so much I would move it back and forth kinda like a duck because that was how my head felt.
Well thing is Ima have to lead in around another 1.5 months and although I love doing it, I'm really scared...
if anyone knows anything I would like it.
What I assume is that the pos. I am ( plus another bending down pos. which is getting down on your knees and putting head on your floor) in is making me bend down so the blood is moving (from what I know)
I've been googling so I will tell you what I found so far.
Been at Sals for two years now.
Life is hard guys. Don't let what others say affect you. Act like how you want. People only criticize you when you make them jealous. Then they make it seem like you just suck. (Whats happening to me here)
I hope one day you guys understand that you guys just waste you energy and brain cells flaming me. I don't think you guys quite understand that. It seems like you guys think I actually care what you think of me.
Just saying. :o
Cya all. Ima call it a night.
Sometymes I can't type stoof on the google searchbar. When I type something and press enter at the top, it shows what I searched but the page stays frozen. I can switch tabs and everything... I just can't use that tab so I gotta close and start a new one.