This is a copy of my post in the mod board, slightly edited. Omg leak!
I'm sorry for a lot of reasons. Sorry I'm asking for this. Sorry it's such bad timing (in many ways). Sorry I've been kind of dropping off the face of the earth lately. Sorry I can't keep fulfilling my responsibility. Sorry I don't know if I want to be here anymore.
Anyway. Yes this is a *shudder* retirement topic. Yes, when I see the title I'll probably forget it was me and go "Crap, who's retiring now? :D"
I never thought I'd actually do this. When I was first promoted, I had boundless enthusiasm. I thought that I'd never be one of those cobwebby retired people. And I kept that up, for awhile. For almost two years. I loved being on here.
But now... it's like nothing's changed but everything has.
There are two main reasons why I'm asking for this. One is lack of time.
From the end of the year last year to early this year, a bunch of my friends moved away and the ones I had left were in different groups. I was left with nothing to do. So I was a great mod. But now I bought one of those life thingees on ebay and it's sucking all my time away. There are times when I can get on here for hours.... But they're less frequent than they used to be, and I feel like I don't have as much time to do as good a job as I can/did before/want to... And frankly (all though I know this is partly a crap reason) I don't really want to spend time here.
Which brings me to my second reason for leaving: Lack of interest. I miss that burst of energy I had when I first became a mod and was happy to do all the reports and anything else that needed doing. But now it's become a chore. I hardly do reports, I've given clan strikes thrice at most, and I just feel drained of energy whenever I come here. For some reason I'm not even posting in the topics in the mod board.
And I feel really bad for saying this, but I don't want to be here. :D It feels like I'm doing homework when I come on here, and that's not a good thing. Part of me says "You shouldn't leave for that", part of me says "Don't be here only because you have to", and part of me says "What makes you think they even want you?"... Oh wait. That last part was Steve. :D
Speaking of Steve, yes, it's a coincidence that we retired at the same time. If he tells you we got run over by a drunk bus driver together and that my name was Roger IRL, don't believe him. It's weird timing how we both leave at the same time (... Actually, he reassured me that I should do this. Which helped.
Anyway, I guess the main reason I stuck around here so long was the people. I have a lot of good friends here. But one of them's leaving, one of them I don't talk to much anymore, one I haven't had the chance to be close to lately. And the rest... They'll be sad, but I think they can get over it..
My messenger is 600 spaces too full and it'll take me a loooong time to clean it out so post whatever you have here. Or if you don't want to post it here, send me a memo on irc/ask one of my friends to forward the message on.