I should be sleeping right now, but I felt like blogging about something. Hopefully I won't end up falling asleep at my computer (again). I have a bad habit of doing that...
I recently ordered a video game (Persona 4 baby!) off Amazon. It was 30% off, and it came with an art book and part of the OST so I bought it on a whim. The package arrived much, much earlier than expected. It was supposed to come next week, but hey, I'm not complainin'. My weekend pretty much revolved around obesssively playing it. My homework plans were utterly destroyed and now I'm likely going to be behind in classes (for shame). My papers just keep piling up and up and up. But at least I have a shiny new toy to play with!
Speaking of classes, I get to drive to to college three days a week now. The other two days I have class at my state college and my parents won't let me drive on freeways yet. They insist that I take a driving lesson first from my old instructor. I asked my mother if she wanted to teach me (since it'll be free), but she adamantly refused. I think she made the right decision... Panic always seems to ensue whenever she's in the car with me. I wouldn't say that I'm a terrible driver to begin with, but I sure as heck don't perform my best when she's yelling, pointing, and waving in my face every passing second. I will say that my initial fears about driving have since worn off. I think I overreacted just a bit too much when I first stepped into the car. I recall nearly colliding into several vehicles... and also just barely avoiding hitting some pedestrians... and... uh... I don't remember much else. It's really all a blur.
But now that I can finally drive, all this freedom isn't as exhilarating as I thought it would be. Maybe I just find the aspect of acquiring something that I don't already have to be 'exciting'. Once I finally achieve that something, it doesn't hold up to my expectations. Or perhaps my expectations are just too high to begin with? That sounds like a more plausible answer. I always tell myself to have low expectations, so if something turns out for the worse, I'll be expecting it. If it turns out for the better, then great. I'll feel like I'm at the top of the world. But, unfortunately, it never plays out like it's supposed to... I end up having high expectations anyway.