It's odd, I think, that I'm actually here at last. I stil feel that I don't belong here, like I'm some outsider trespassing. I know I have every right to be here- I passed the placement test, I paid for the next semester, I even have my college ID, for crying out loud.
Still, the fact is that I can't forget the last time I was in this room. It was when I was 12, with my sister (who was actually a college student at that time). They didn't let me enter to use the computers, because I wasn't a student. Now that I am actually a student, I feel like nothing's changed. It's so odd. It's funny how other people that only see you a few times a year realize that you've grown, that you're so mature, that you're a YOUNG MAN, not a boy. And I, I still feel like I'm 7. I feel like any moment now, Security is going to drag me out of the lab and call my mom. :P
Maybe it's because classes haven't started yet. They start next month, and I'm using the computers now. BTW, they're Macs. It's the first time I've ever used one. -.- It feels so... so... modern.
I have the whole day here with nothing to do. My friends are taking a test right now, and I'm not going home until 4. It's better than being at home, I guess. I've already drawn a tree in the quad and written about it. I know I look 3 years older than I actually am- someone asked me if I was a professor!
And another reason I feel odd is because everyone can see what I'm doing. Whenever I'm on the computer, I'm at home in a corner, not in the middle of 20 people. :P