I remember every DM and mod (except yuan), Donovan, I think Neo and many retired mods as forum members.
I remember Xaria as a DM, remember all the promotions I've gone through desperately wishing that I would become a part of the staff. When I was about 10.
I remember the first ever cc (now fc) members promotion, where people could nominate others and then staff would decide. I remember getting so mad I wasn't nominated and yelled at Wilt for not nominating me.<_< I even thought about making another Sals account to nominate myself, but I didn't go that far. I was about 10 too.
I remember when talking to staff and cc mods was like talking to celebrities, it got me so excited and made my heart race.
I remember the clashings I've gone through - the feud between Pinkytm and Grazer Magic over me (ohgod), me being one of Macki's good friends and him getting banned and the falling out of salcast into TMZ.
I've learnt over the past 5 years that people change, even though I get that sinking feeling that they don't care about the great times that we had and act like strangers. I've learnt that guys aren't as daunting as I thought they were, and they actually have feelings. It's amazing.
I honestly don't know where I'd be without Sals. My best guess would be that I'd be terrible at comebacks (hi dani), soft and vulnerable, have a lot less patience (ty Sals fc), shrink away from any sort of contact with a guy, have lots of anger bundled up inside of me with nobody to rage to (ty blog) and advice (kind of) and most importantly, taught me how to type properly. I doubt that if I joined Sals today, that anyone would think I was over 15 :P
Fudge I'm old.
In other news, I changed my hairstyle in school today. People may remember the entry a few months ago where I said that I was 'scared of change' and didn't change my hairstyle for about 3 or 4 years before today. Let me tell you, it was pretty big. At the sight of me in the morning, my friends came flocking to me to rip my hat off and inspect my hair (yes the school forces us to wear stupid ugly wide-brimmed hats that messes up my hair). I mean, I've gotten this in the holidays. When I got my hair layered, my friend appeared my door and greeted me with 'let me in so I can touch your hair' and I was like 'well hi to you too'. Anyway back to the original topic. For the first 2 periods I was incredibly self-conscious and felt everybody's eyes boring into my hair (I sit a row from the front). In form, one of the guys was whispering to his mates 'look, Sofee changed her hair'. I'm not sure if he meant it in a good or bad way. Then I started to relax a bit and it felt natural. At the end of the day, I was horrified. I looked as if I was struck by lightning. Hair stuck out in all directions, and I wondered if it was like that for the whole day.
I'll stop myself now as guys probably aren't drawn to the fascinating topic of hair. Inb4 no comments.