Just a heads up that there might be emo sounding complaining or general rambling in this entry.
Anyway, my dad has been in the hospital since Friday. He has been in the hospital for pancreatitis three times now. For those who know the symptoms, he doesn't drink, or do any of those other things that can cause it which is an abnormality. It's just odd that he's gotten it so many times since he shouldn't have gotten it. But yeah, that's where he (and our family) spent our new year's eve and first day of 2012.
That's not even the worst part though. He got diagnosed with duodenum cancer (yeah, that's a thing) on Saturday. There's a slow growing tumor that's around two inches in his duodenum that hopefully hasn't spread cancer to other parts in his body.
I just don't know what to do. Our family has been talking about it, but I don't know who else to talk to. I know what it's like to be at the other end of having to hear about someone talk about their sick relatives and it's just awkward. I don't want to be selfish and just make my friends feel bad because they don't know what to do to help me.
I also don't feel worried. Is that a problem? My brother's worried sick. He hasn't gotten any sleep and he's been crying a lot. But I haven't lost any sleep or shed a tear yet. Yeah, I'm worried, but like...I'm sure dad's gonna be okay. Should I be more worried?
I dunno. I'm just so confused. :D