We're friends again.
I never stopped being your friend. I always looked out for your best interest. I dated you because I thought it could work. I wasn't concerned about either of our reputations. I wasn't concerned what anyone thought of me or you. When I broke up with you, I was hoping that you would keep your distance and slowly get over me, because you fell for me. Hard. I wasn't quite there yet and I lied because I didn't know what to do. Since you kept trying to insist talking to me, I blocked you on facebook to help you get over me. I heard you cut yourself a few days after we broke up and I felt terrible, but I knew talking to you (or really, yelling at you) would've only made things worse and made you miss me more. Often whenever I fought with Sarah, I thought about how bad Sarah felt and how you must've felt when I broke up with you. When it came back to me you were dating whatshisface, my first reaction was "lawl, called it" because I did. My second reaction was that you probably weren't over me yet and that it wouldn't last for one reason or another. Throughout this entire time, you went through phases of blocking and unblocking me on facebook. The most recent, you added me back and I was utterly shocked, to say the least.
I don't know where you stand with me in terms of any kind of relationship/friendship. I still do think you're really pretty, but there were things in your personality that I feel weren't really you and you were trying to hard to "be up to my level". Whether or not that's what actually happened, I don't know. I feel that you dipped out of who you are to impress me and keep me around. I feel that you let the fact that you were dating.. well... someone made you feel like a fudgeing queen and your attitude clearly changed. You're extremely insecure on many levels and I feel that you should really talk to someone about all of that and learn to be more confident. I could honestly see us dating again one day, but in the distant future. Not now. I'm currently unfit for a relationship and I'm in the process of re-discovering who I am. I'm opening my bloom, so to speak.
oh. I wish you were this honest with me before. i didn't notice that i changed. i used to be very oblivious. though you rubbed off on me so maybe that's why. i don't know. and you're right i did fall and i'm sorry i put you in that position, i really truly am. i would've understood though. i dated him because i actually liked him and i thought i was over you. we didn't work out for similar reasons not because of anything to do with you, as much as he thinks it was. i do still like you but i can either just be your friend or nothing at all, I've changed a lot. i'm not insecure anymore. you may not believe it but i'm not. it's more of a see it to believe it type of deal. i talk to a therapist now because of other issues i have. i'd like to be in your life again and maybe help you through what you're going through, only if you want. it's all up to you. the last thing i want is to pressure you. and i'm holding up great actually, this wasn't what i was expecting you to say, but i'm glad you finally said it.
No. Reason being is that I'm still not over you so the plan to help me move on failed. You did do what was best for you and i can appreciate that.
TOLD YOU SHE STILL ISN'T OVER ME LILSHU AND SLEI