So for the past ~3.5 weeks I have been living in Townsville, in a dorm at the university here... I like it. At times, it's the happiest I have been in a long time.
But, at the same time, I am terrible with people and the motions are so draining. Smiling at the right time. Saying the right words. Helping those who need help. Sometimes it's too much and whenever I'm alone it all catches up. I can't tell if I am fine or horribly depressed. I just finished crying alone in my room while I read a book.
I'll definitely be staying next year. I have friends again, it's been a while. I just hope it gets easier.