So yesterday morning I found out an ex-coworker committed suicide. I want to add that she is 17. It's really devastating, because this is the second person my age that I can think of, that has committed suicide. Not only that, but I'm good friends with her sister, who works with me. I'm also good friends with one of her best friends. This girl and I aren't very close, even when we worked together, we barely talked. I guess it just really shocks me that she would commit suicide. She was always the happy easy going type, she was always cheerful, never showed any signs of depression, or wanting to commit suicide. On top of that, a lot of guys liked her, and she was a great athlete, even got college offers and awards due to her athletic abilities. I never liked working with her, though, because I felt she was lazy (she called off half the time, and when she was at work, she sat around).
This has gotten me thinking of the results of suicide. Many people are upset about. I myself have contemplated suicide, and I feel jealous because I don't even know for sure who would be upset over me, but at the same time, upset with myself for thinking like that. I feel sorry for her sister, who is also very kind. I'm scared for her best friend, who is also one of my best friends. That best friend is away for military training, and she graduates the day of the funeral (that's when she's going to get her phone back and learn of this bad news. I'm scared for them both,especially the latter, I wish I could help.
Well it's getting late, time to rap up with life is too short.