"but you said you were leaving!!!"
I might as well get the big thing out of the way first, in the time since I left I have done a lot of thinking about myself. After many sleepless nights and emotional roller-coasters I've come to terms with the fact that I'm transgender. I'm really glad that I have a therapist helping me out, because if I didn't I might be dead right now, there were days where suicide felt like a pretty great option.
Thinking about me being a girl made me laugh a bit at first, but then I realized how much more comfortable I am when I'm treated like a girl. I've started changing my appearance a bit, haven't gotten too far with it because I'm still living at home and will for the next 2 or 3 years. I'm going to get a nice haircut soon and have been wearing a light amount of makeup. I'm not changing my name because it's perfectly fine for a girl, just changing the spelling from Jordan to Jordyn.
It may be a while yet before I can start HRT as I would need to leave home and have a good job to pay for it, but that's okay. I'll eventually get to where I want to be.
In other news, I was briefly on an independent music label, but I was kicked off because the label owner doesn't like "retarded liberal social justice warriors." TIL being transgender automatically makes me a SJW!
I am learning Japanese, I've been studying for a few months. I'm a bit stuck on grammar, but my vocabulary study is going well. Hopefully by this time next year I can have a intelligent discussion with a Japanese friend.
I can't think of anything else, the weather's been nasty and I guess I'm okay.