blogs need to stay away. away.
but i blog.
and its not the early 2000s.
maybe it is the early 2000s.
time is a social construct
maybe time doesnt actually pass
how are you all??
i am good. VERY GOOD. you know how complicated life is. well ive come to the realisation that life is going to get very tough for me. since i've recently turned 20 i've decided to do some consolidation of my life. turns out that at one point i have to tell my very religious parents that i'm not actually religious. it's a bridge that really needs to be crossed at one point. i enjoy partying, having the freedom to eat what i want and also i don't really believe in islam itself, but i'd consider myself agnostic.
however i also love my family (some of you may be surprised that i am capable of such emotions) and if i do be like "guys im not religious at all" then i'll not only have to deal with my mum/dad but i'll have to deal with my extended family, who are all very religious and we're a tightly knit family. i know exactly how my parents will respond, i'll end up an outsider to the family. i'd say a 40% chance of being kicked out and 100% chance of becoming distant with my family. my brother and like most of my cousins aged between 13-30 will understand.
i guess i'm not really typing this all out for advice since i know what will happen but just to get it off my chest.
heart palpitations. lung disease. no breathing. death. death. death. revival.
BRING US YOUR MACADAMIA NUTS PLEASE.
SERVE IT AS AN OFFERING