Synapsi

So we’re ice fishing? You could have told me so I at least had the opportunity to dress appropriate. Look at what you’re wearing

Where did the land go

Oh Adam I'm so sorry.

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Don't I know it. He was a rescue from the local pound as a 2 year old

Nope, but there's a dog

What better to do than mimic my 15 year old self and overshare on the internet? My last blog post was basically at the start of my self-discovery journey and so much has been going on since then. This past year I met my best friend who is about the only person I feel comfortable spilling my guts to, and is basically my rock. Which is timely because my 7 year relationship/3.5 year marriage is officially finished and she's hurt me so bad I don't know what to do most days. And now I have the pleasure of splitting our assets, including our house that I poured myself into, and eventually moving back in with my parents. So yeah, stay in school, kids, it's safer there.

Right? It's like, I remember you! ...from 16 years ago lol

No worries Wilt, I had quite a bit of nostalgia seeing a lot of familiar names there. Some of them seemingly living somewhat close to me too. It was quite the blast from the past, as short as I made it. I’m often finding myself missing the sense of community I had in sal’s back in the day, within the last year uniquely even more so. It doesn’t help that on average my coworkers are 10 years minimum older than me, and in different places in their lives than me as well. Hell, that’s probably true across the industry for all I know. And for a while now the vast majority of my friends have scattered in pursuit of their own lives. It puts me at an odd place in my life with so few connections, barring family. So yeah, the good ol’ rusty sals blog it is.

I can appreciate the sentiment, I’m just in a weird flux IRL as you could imagine. I’m out to close friends and immediate family, and let’s just say my in-laws fall well to the right politically which made that conversation exceptionally hard. So yeah, it’s not that I’m scared of talking with any ol’ slammer because I wouldn’t be posting now if I were but I wasn’t ready to be putting out fires on a second (or third) front. Ya never know where word will travel is all. So Wilt (and the dozen or two assorted slammers), if you see this, now you know why I was so skittish with the FB group chat lol. It was literally less than 24 hours after I’d posted on here saying I’m lgbt.

Sal's had been so intertwined with young me's development for so long it's funny to me how I'm still drawn to make this post even though it's been like three and a half years since my last one. In that time I've become a homeowner, gotten married, adopted a dog, and yet nothing drew a post out of me til now. Coming up on a year ago now the pieces slid into place for me and I saw the clearest picture of myself to date. In my first few years here as a freshly minted member I was a proud witness to more than a few forumers finding themselves and it's only taken me a decade to catch up. Sometimes I can only shake my head at young me but then again, who am I to judge? I forget how long ago it was but at one point this year I made a semi-subtle status update alluding to the subject of this post but deleted it after being surprised by a facebook chat invite to a group of slammers. Real life name meets internet folk, you know how it goes. So I guess this is take two? I'm split between sharing a fundamental part of myself with a scattered group I considered friends and the status quo of shutting in. But today was rough for me, all I want to do is eat again or watch more Netflix. And I'm just about out of whiskey. There’s this weird duality where it feels like I’ve had to grow up so fast while dealing with doctors and insurance for the first time, and yet I’m experiencing at the same time the rollercoaster of self-discovery and emotions I would’ve associated with middle school. Whether it's today with you or a year from now with literally everyone else, I'll have to get used to trusting in people's goodness. And so, with more time on my hands than ever, I ask this one question: do you think there's a prominent trans slammer I might have been aware of? You know, asking for a friend.

I don't spend too much time on this hobby of mine but about once a year I get bit by the bug and I try something a little different. When I'm in the mood for it I usually spent a few hours after work for a week in the garage and that's typically enough and then some depending on the knife. Some I've made only took 8 hours altogether and nowadays it'd probably take much less for me to do. It really depends on what you're going for. If you're interested here's the breakdown I kept of how long each step took me, asterisks are things that were extra: All in all, I think it's a great hobby that you can sink as much or as little time into as you'd like. Let me know if you have any questions

The comparison in activity from when I joined in 2006 to now is mind boggling. I can't believe it's been ten years. I was looking at my profile seeing what I included and started to realize... it's already been five years since I had relocated nearly exclusively to the minecraft thread! Scrolling down the main page looking at the last activity timestamps gives me a real Rip Van Winkle moment, it's so foreign to me still I just can't help but sigh every time. And then there's Guitarguy still chugging away with his status updates lol. There once was a time where I had to put thought into what time I wanted to publish a blog entry in order to not be quickly pushed onto the second page of blogs. Nowadays, that coveted page contains nearly an entire year's worth of blogging... I don't know if I've ever said it proper, but thank you. To all of you I've spoken to on here, pleasantly or not, for what you've given me. A lot of who I am as a person was developed here. From the clan forums to the debate room and the forming of the clan chat moderating team to the minecraft server members, you've all given me fond memories and friends that I won't soon forget. Obligatory latest knife picture I've got three more on the way but with increasingly more difficult styles so we'll see how it goes.

Oh I think it's way too late for that lol

It's been a while, hasn't it? Just thought I'd drop by and see what this place is doing. It's unbelievable to me that I came upon this place nearly ten years ago. And remembering what it was like then and seeing me and one other member online now. It's nothing new but still so weird to see. So how's life? Obligatory rifle pictures: http://imgur.com/a/vgoIU Edit: I might've had a bit to drink a while ago and might ramble a bit but... In the first image I've now got a x7 magnifier in front of my red dot for target shooting and a bipod attached to the bayonet lug. You ever shot steel targets? Guaranteed you feel like Annie Oakley because the feedback from the steel plates making that pinging sound is addicting. And in the second picture I've got a bayonet for funsies courtesy of a coworker. I'd never seriously put it on for anything but it just looks so right lol. My goal in life is to someday own property that I can shoot on. I love feeling the concussive force each round puts out, I can feel it in the ground through my shoes. And because thanks to Russia I can shoot my rifle as cheap as any .22 can. :D