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wow long time no talk... hopefully you're feeling better now i'm also from Toronto so if you ever do decide to come by pm me (hopefully I read the message on time LOL)

melo to houston

Should they? (I'll be updating my post with my view)

these are toughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh the metallic 5s that dropped this year are tough af too (and the black cat 6s)

ibaka trade pretty fair for both teams.. rap in a win now situation while orlando gets to update their young core

right now im going into my second year of my bachelor of science honestly the only reason im in it is because i couldnt find anything else to do and i was already taking math/science in high school so why not soo yeah the thing is im not passionate about anything at all. i kinda like math cuz im good at it, science im pretty good at too and i dont really mind it that much. only thing i dont want to do for sure is become an engineer/do anything with physics. what did you guys when you were in a position like this? how did you end up making up your mind and find something to do? i really like playing basketball but im obviously not good enough to go pro and i do not really want to work in a field of sports cuz i would be too sad its not me playing.

nahhhhhhhhhh lets go kd curry klay thats a cooking lineup

yo leo are you from toronto?? i live in toronto lool but i think love will stay and if he does go prolly to bostom and wow wtf curry wtf curry wtf i actually cried when they lost

idk is anyone watching euros? im going for germany and france

ive been saying dubs are too much LOL back to backkk and yeaaa i feel bad for lebron too his team has completely left him!

oh atleticoo

@conspic thats pretty cool loool your a brave guy... but idk i actually believe in islam and stuff so i cant just do that i just want them to be more relaxed so moving out could possible make them more relaxed. so basically put yourself in an uncomfortable situation so you can adapt right

i literally posted this exact same thing to reddit so i just pasted it here but im gonna add a bit more.. Basically I'm pretty sure the root of my problems start from childhood. I am the oldest child and I'm 18 and a guy. Basically ever since I was younger my parents would tell me not to have friends. They would tell me to only talk to people at school when I needed to and when I came home I needed to have no connection to school. Due to this I basically never went out once I came home or once it was the weekend. My friends at school knew this (from like grade 1) but of course they all hung out and I never got that close to them. I did not have a tv or anything in my house and my parents are pretty religious so talking with girls and such was out of the picture. I just want to say that yes although this shizzle is fudgeed up in a way my younger siblings actually live a good life. I think my parents learnt from me and they're allowed to have friends and although they're still strict with going out and what not they do get to go out and play sports and join sports teams at school (something I was never able to do) but idk the damage is done right. Anyways around end of grade 11 I decided enough is enough and I made a facebook and I started having convos and stuff with a bunch of people. All this time though at school I used to be the loudest in class and I was a pretty guy. Girls didn't like me (I remember this but I'm not sure why) but end of grade 11 I was getting kind of better. This brings me to my first problem which I'm getting kind of better at. Back then because I'd literally never talked to a girl about anything other than school I used to get so nervous talking to girls and whatnot and this kind of leads to what is wrong now. I started university this year and I haven't really made friends. People tell me to join clubs but i don't really have much interests except for playing basketball and i didn't realize when the sign ups for intramurals were so I'll sign up when next year starts. Basically I'm really not that awkward when I talk to girls anymore (I literally talked to every girl i saw at school to kill my fear or whatever it was) and I can make them laugh and whatever. BUT although I do get their numbers and stuff I don't get close to them and I'm unsure how. And if I do get close to a girl I immediately catch feelings for her which is fudgeing retarded because as a guy you know how much it sucks to have feelings for a girl you wrent even trying flirt with. Then I get all sad and depressed when they don't reply to my texts and I can't stop thinking about them. This literally happens with any girl that shows friendly affection towards me. I'm pretty sure this has to do with me not talking to girls for the majority of my life. Any idea how I can fix this??? The second problem is I'm obsessed with trying to make the basketball team. I won't lie I'm pretty good and although there isn't a very good chance I won't make the team next year I work everyday towards trying to make the team. I don't know what's wrong with me but I want to experience that bond or whatever with being on a team. I see the players of different teams together and I'm kinda jealous of the friendship they have. How can I get over all this?? As for guy friends I judge way too much. Like I can become friends easily with guys too but I'm so selective and it's not a good think. Like I'll try to become friends with people on sports teams or who I think are "cool". Someone told me to give everyone a chance so I'm doing that but any help would be appreciated for that too. Also classes end in twoish weeks so I guess if I can make some kind of friends before the summer it would be great. Usually the past 17 summers of my life are the most depressing time of my life. My parents don't let me go out and I sit at home the whole day doing nothing and sometimes I just feel like crying. This summer I'm taking summer school and I've also told my parents im going to play basketball in the summer so it would be nice to finally hangout with people and not be so depressed. Honestly any sort of break or holiday is a nightmare for me. I think I need to socially interact with people or else I get really sad. I'm not the type of person that can sit around and be happy being alone. My school campus is also pretty big like 80000 students and I don't live on campus which also sucks. so added on:my parents havent exactly gotten better. theyre very religious so they get at the dumbest shizzle for me. i think about running away a lot but i literally dont have any money and i cant exactly take care of myself. plus they said some pretty hurtful things so im trying my best not to talk with them unless i have to have to.. (like the things they said were pretty sad i cant believe my parents would say that stuff) (they werent making fun of me but im not gonna say what they said) i cant exactly leave the house whenever i want. like the other day i had an exam and i came home after and went to sleep cuz i slept 3 hours the night before. when i woke up i went to play ball for 2 hours and after i came home they yelled so much and stuff.. oh and they said i have to work in the summer (like i owe them) and my dad is like oh its my house u must listen to me.. that kinda makes me sad cuz i met someone on the ball team who said he would work with me over the summer and this is my best chance to get onto the team but idk now if i work playing ball the whole day is kind of hard. ok i gotta go take care guys

@sneezingtree nah fam i didnt feel offended at all.. that was actually comforting to read.. "you are provided with a glimpse of the constraints of adulthood" what did you mean by this "you may forget that just because you all have the mutual connection to your university, it also has the size of a medium-sized city: how many people can you actually connect with in a city?" by this you mean i cant ever be connected to everyone right? You go to a friggin' HUGE university with 80,000 people and you probably see people all around you making you say 'if there's people everywhere why do I feel so isolated?' yeah this EXACTLY bro i feel this way allllllllllll the time. ill try the listening thing when classes start again i guess.. tbh conversation isnt really that big of a deal i mean i can USUALLY start a convo with a girl beside me but if shes even 2 seats away ill good kitty! out.. but yeah ill for sure try to get them to tlak more about themselves and lool okay but im not even kidding but feelings fudge with you so bad.. like its annoying to want them to talk to you so bad and you cant even focus on anyhting. ill also try to join some clubs.. but honestly apart from sports i really am not interested in anything so im going to join intramural sports first of all even if im a good listener tho i still have learn how to be funny and engaging;.. i dont want to be a robot right but thanks man ill for sure try my best when the new school year starts again but yeah feeling not connected feels realllly bad.. plus i consider myself pretty social so i get kinda depressed when i have none to talk to

what kind of rude surprises? do you mean how hard it is to surprise on your own? yeah ive been kind planning a budget but a job might be something i reallly need to get. and yeah i agree the main thing is staying at home is hurting my social skills and growth.. idk if this makes sense but some guy told me that its like not ever walking until after highschool.. this is the same thing.. ive never really practiced my social skills and now im getting a bit not really i have a some money which i have lying around but i use that when i eat or whatever. and LOL what kinda life do you live with your friends? more freedom and getting my social skills up will be a process i need to work on. by getting "you get grounded again" do you mean settling in myself? also i have no idea what would happen if i actually left. i have no idea how they would react.. knowing them they would hunt me down or something like that

yup i think im going to have to get out of my comfort zone.. its mainly the fear of what theyll do if they find out i was doing something thats why i dont really leave the house once im at home. as for money they usually buy me stuff. i never got allowance but as i got older every few months ill go to the mall with my mom and we just walk around buying a bunch of clothes so thats not really a problem. but basically they hate when i spend money on anything for fun... like they get mad that i spend a bus ticket (which is like $2) to go play basketball..... and im gonna message you somethingg

i tried watching the video but i couldnt understand what he was saying LOL is a society a club?? yeah i feel you about the hating thing.. like i wanna love them but they make it so hard and they keep saying theyre just trying to tell me the right things and try to make my life better. yup when next school year starts im planning to be friends with everyone. and i already do get student finance so its not even like theyre paying for my tuition... did you end up running away or something?? and yeah im saving up my money so incase i do decide to leave i can kind of provide for myself. and oh i didnt see u comment sofee ill get back to you

yup i live at home and the commute is 40ish mins so thats good (because my highschool was walking distance and my dad would show up in his car when i wasnt home on time smh). it is pretty weird and honestly the worst thing is that its not even like im hanging out with anyone or banging a girl or something (like that stuff they are against so i would get that but this is really over nothing is rotc the military thing? if it is nahhh i really dont think its for me the only good reason why i would think of running away is so i dont have any contact with that so they cant they to enforce anything else on me but yeah i do realize it is dramatic and quite unnecessary too. yeah i do think sticking it thru is the best thing to do but ill wait to see what others would say. oh and on the topic of owning me.. basically in canada we can get our g1 license at the age of 16. you do a written test and once you have that you can drive with someone beside you and you can start to learn how to drive. ive been 18 for 6 months and my parents are still getting mad if i even bring the topic of getting my license... small things like that fudge with you right... the only reason they have is because they are older, they have experience and they know its not the right time to get it yet. i mean its not that big of a deal but cmonnnn

and thanks sobend means alot

yeah lemme try to make it neater. oh yeah and did i say i cant live outside of home.. they just said no straight out otherwise i would have gone to a uni that wasnt close to my home anyways lmao.. yeah im going to try for basketball this summer but yeah basically they dont want me leaving the house its like they want to have complete control over my life (even going as far as telling me not to go out with friends and sometimes they know i go out with my cousin so theyre like ohhh if you go out with him make sure he pays because you go to school and he works so you dont have money to waste... like thats not the shizzle you tell your kids right??) im pretty sure the not having friends rule fudgeed alot with me growing up so my social skills arent exactly the best and yeah im thinking getting a job cant be that bad because ill be making money and money can actually help me if i do decide to make some moves

okay ive been reading my old blog entries and damn i used to be addicted to league.............. im not even sure what i want now.. maybe some freedom? i think what they want is for me to listen to every thing they say and be really religious like them. tbh i dont even have a problem with the religion itself i believe it and everything but theyre just pushing it too far now. if anyone has some advice it would be real nice. i'll actually listen to peoples advice unlike before when i just kept playing league and fudgeing up my relationship with my parents more.