At the time he posted this, I was not very much around due to moving on to my more intense periods of my life towards the end of my University studies. It was quite a few years later when I came over a thread in the Scape Lounge where it said he just went missing one day.
Well, ever since then, I have been fearing that he had commited suicide. Druin once mentioned to me once that he might just go missing some day, and we would never hear from him again. To have it confirmed... well, it hurt more than I expected it to, having been "prepared" to know that for years.
Druin was.. funny, kind, smart and witty. I have met many remarkable people in my time here, and quite a few of you have become friends and acquaintances. I have shared laughs and stories with hundreds of people, and they have made my time here something I will treasure for the rest of my life. Druin though.. he is one of few that earned my respect. He did not because of something he did or said, but because of the type of person he was. I like to think that a lot of people here came to respect him for his excellence, and in that, his memory will carry on.
....as a few general notes though, since... well, what Wiltingplant mentions is important:
In January 2020, a friend of mine commited suicide. I found myself being one of a few close friends of his that had to nurse my friend through the last unraveling of his sanity, as he steadily lost his will to live over the course of a few months. My friend had the intelligence of Common Sense, the wisdom of Cameron and the wit of Dani. To see someone that amazing run straight into a mental wall, and see them turn into a husk of their former self was... horrifying. It hurt the day I read a message from him and I realised he had attempted suicide. It hurt having to get his brother to go over to check in vain if he was still alive. It hurt having to inform our friends that he had passed away. 2020 was... a brutal year that changed me, simply because that death shook me to the core, and a lot of people in my group of friends have struggled since.
So, everyone, I implore you all.. Take care of yourself, your loved ones, and try to show acts of care and compassion to anyone around you. Whether or not you feel affected by the global pandemic, a lot of people do find themselves isolated and alone. Norwegian studies show that children, youth and young adults are all suffering with psychological issues due to how our lives have changed, and younger generations struggle with loneliness. People around you might struggle. You might not see signs of people struggling, but trust me. They are. They need to be seen, recognised and shown some glimmer of compassion. And to all of you stubborn men here, that think you can handle it... do not be a bloody fool, and get someone to talk to. The voices, the guilt and the issues will not go away. They will just grow and become worse until either you cave in, and seek help, or your mind caves in, and you crush everyone you leave behind.
In the meantime, I suppose I'll keep on truckin'. I owe that to Druin.