4 years. And for most of that time, this site's existence was possibly the last thing on my mind.
I received an e-mail telling me I have been here 4 years, out of some twisted morbid curiosity I looked back here.
4 years ago I was in high school, sleeping through classes yet always managing to get by. Friends were few but good.
I lived for nothing more then to see the next day, play some Runescape, and spend some time with my friends. The feeling was akin to eternal bliss.
Not that this place was bad, it branched off into me finding many great communities, many great people. A gem or two directly through here, and the rest through branching out into different games. Here is where many great things started for me.
Its almost funny to look at what I did here. At the time it was important to me, I enjoyed it. In my posts I can almost feel the emotion and intent behind them. Some things were quite stupid, others a bit less. Either way, what can I do about it now. Honesty it probably helped keep me sane through high school. I had joined the community about the same time I had lost my sight. Being blind (Vision approx. 20/400) in high school is miserable as many could guess. I learned to play Runescape blind, had the largest font sizes you ever did see. Whatever it took to have fun.
And now I stand here, about a semester away from entering pharmacy school after two brutal years of coursework. Its almost humbling to see what my thoughts were before. How little I cared for my future until it slapped me in the face. But I had learned from much of this. One of the more incredible things I learned is how kicking one's own ass can produce results.
When I had been active here my foremost thought was to my immediate fun. I wanted nothing more then to enjoy the moment without savoring it. But that is just the way I was supposed to be. It feels like it is rare to get a window to the past like this, to see my own growth. Other then a few chuckles and humbling moments, I feel like I can take away something a bit more.
I slept through high school, hell even middle school for that matter. Even while giving what felt like zero effort into my classes I had done well above the average. I didn't even realize this myself until I finally found something I enjoyed. Something that challenged my ability to learn, reason, and think.
I found a passion in what would amount to pursuing a doctorate of pharmacy, and I am still loving every second of it. The effort I now worked to put in, more effort then any I have put into any other sort of personal advancement gave me results. I saw, I learned, then I mastered the materials given, and wanted more. I found what a passion feels like, and I feel it is one of the most wonderful and humbling experiences in life.
Enough about that however, I need to get to wrap this up now that I have finished my tea.
To those that have taken the time to read this, know that it is nearly 1AM (a fairly late time for myself) and my brain is spent after finals. I probably made very little sense but maybe a reader can take something away. Mostly I just wanted to post something about what I felt over the last hour or two.
PS: My vision has since been restored to where I am no longer legally blind. I will have to deal with complications throughout life, but who said enjoying life is simple.